This post will be about fat people feeling guilty about the food they eat.
I bet every single one of you fat people have had this experience: You're having lunch with your skinny girl friend, and she chooses to order something that is much healthier than what you've just ordered. You immediately feel guilty, because you're fatter than her and should be eating less than she does.
In fact, one of my girl friends had the nerve to ask me "Why are you eating so much?" And I definitely felt guilty, even though I knew she genuinely meant it and wasn't trying to attack me.
But this is not a good reason to feel guilty! Every individual has the right to choose what she wants to eat, and what you eat should not be based on what other people eat, or what they think of what you're eating. However, it's just so hard to ignore those feelings of guilt, which come very naturally. We're humans and we "over-care" about what people think of us.
This is a Chinese dish commonly found in Singapore. It's called "San Chen Rou", otherwise known as "Three-Layered Pork". The reason why it's called three-layered pork, is because there are literally three layers. From bottom to top, the three layers are the meat, the fat, and the skin.
I don't know if you can tell from the picture, but the skin is the brown layer, and right below that is a layer of fats. Anyway, most of my friends (the few who dare to eat this dish) will cut their pork into the three distinct layers, and only eat the skin and meat while leaving the fats behind.
Now, I simply LOVE the fat part and even though my conscience tells me that I should not eat pure fats, I will end up eating the fats. Sometimes I cut away the fat and intend to leave it behind, but after I'm done with my meal, and the fats are left alone on my plate, I just cannot resist them. Then I start feeling all guilty about it because my skinnier friends are so disgusted by the fats, so I, a fat person, shouldn't be eating more fats!
I refuse to believe that they seriously DISLIKE the fats. They claim that they genuinely dislike the slimy texture of the fats. But to hell with that idea! If fats didn't taste awesome, nobody would buy them. I just think that they've been brainwashed into believing that they don't like fats, and instinctively shun the fats, because they don't want to be fat.
Back to the point: I will invariably feel guilty when I eat the fats and others don't. It's three-layered pork. I must eat all three layers. But if my friends eat the two healthier layers and ignore the nicest third layer, I will feel fat and disgusting and think they're judging me for it (even though they're not). Sigh.
